So I’ve recently cut my hair off completely for the second time in the past year. I usually butcher my hair when I’m heavenly stressed out. With this latest big chop, I had an epiphany. My drive for living was damn near gone. Slave to my minimum wage jobs, my life force was being sucked from me. I want to feel like I’m alive again. No I long for the feeling. I’ve become a shell of my former self. Words that should have levt my lips never did. Irrelevant options making their way into my everyday life. None of which my pregnancy caused. The birth of my daughter Amelia was exactly the push I needed. Coming to terms with my decision that have placed me in this predicament. Its been hard pulling myself together with all these situations popping up. If its not one thing its another, but hey that’s life. From here on out I’m all about doing this my way to improve mine and my daughter’s lives. I no longer care about if I offend people who need to be put in their place. I want to be happy with both my appearance and emotional state of mind. Im not getting any younger to be standing still anymore,. Its time to take these steps znd big ones at that. Its no longer just about me anymore. My daughter comes first. With that being said, I have to find inner peace to become the person I’ve always sought out to be.
I can’t just turn this on. I’m not like you guys. I don’t have claws, or glowing eyes or super senses. I just have voices in my head.